So I try living in the moment 'til the moment it just froze and I felt sick and so alone

It feels like I've abandoned this thing and in a way I have/did. The much lauded trip to New York was off for a while due a family illness which I've no desire to talk about on here. But it's back on now. For real.

I'm due to fly on Saturday afternoon and am so unprepared in every imaginable way possible that you wouldn't believe. I'm so not ready for this trip, though I'm not sure anyone can really be ready for what is most probably the most famous city on the planet.

Awesome right?